Now onto the much more important update: my pregnancy!
I am still so grateful to have got to this stage. I think back to just over a year ago and what a low spot I was in. I was about to have a laparoscopy as they suspected endometriosis and I was in quite a state as I feared what this would mean for my ability to ever have children. I was exhausted from the months of TTC and was starting to feel the frustrations of the NHS fertility process.
I wish I had a way of letting FlatWhite of 2015 know that 2016 would be very different!
So I am now roughly 22 weeks. The dates seem to change all the time, and the NHS scans seem to place me slightly behind the private scans we had a while ago. I don’t think it particularly matters though. I am just amazed to be able to say that I am around 22 weeks and am in the second trimester! Wahoo!
Thankfully the 20 week scan last week suggested that everything is ok so far. We have also borrowed a Doppler so that we can listen to Baby FlatWhite’s heartbeat now and again (don’t worry – I’ve not gone too crazy with this!).
We are starting to get things for the baby and BT even painted the nursery (in his words, he enjoyed doing “man jobs”. Don’t worry – I’ve already told him that he’s not to teach Baby FlatWhite that there are “man jobs” and “woman jobs”!).
It’s just nice to be able to relax a little and start to enjoy things. I’m still incredibly nervous (well truth be told, we both are, but BT is stronger than me!), but each passing week gives me a little more hope. We have even started buying a few things.
Our purchases so far have definitely focussed on the fun things, rather than the practical things. A few friends have sent me lists of “essentials” that we need for a newborn, and in all honesty I found it totally overwhelming.
To date, here are a few things we have bought:
Perhaps not the most sensible things (except for the furniture and car seat) but they have made us both smile!!! The Superman Swimsuit was actually bought by BT. My parents suddenly came over so I sent him to the local supermarket to buy emergency tea, coffee and cakes (yes – a very British thing to do!). Naturally, as you do, he came back with the Superman Swimsuit… (although you’ll be pleased to hear, he DID remember the cakes!). Apparently the children’s swim stuff was in the entrance of the supermarket and BT’s heart just melted when he saw the Superman outfit! With the mix of Spiderman, Superman and Thomas the Tank Engine possessions, Baby FlatWhite may have a bit of an identity crisis (or perhaps just a loyalty crisis?)!
We have bought two or three baby grows and bibs and will probably pick up a few more things, but we are trying not to get too many ‘newborn’ things. It may sound a bit silly, but my mum warned me that she never got to use the things she had bought as both me and my brother were big babies and never fitted into the newborn stuff. I think she’s exaggerating, but she told me I was in the 3-6 months after about two weeks! I was obviously destined to be a fatty.
So I’m just plodding along taking each day as it comes. My weight gain has been appalling (in 22 weeks I have gained 24lbs!) so I don’t feel particularly great about myself. I have also had terrible swollen feet, ankles and calves over the past week or so, which have been incredibly painful. I think it’s due to the weight gain and the fact that we had a few “hot” (by British standards!) days over the past week. None of it is fun, but for every week I am carrying a healthy baby I will suck up whatever is sent my way.
I am, however, a little worried about the healthy eating and fitness regime I need to start come November. I just hope I find the internal strength to do something about the weight.
Anyway, enough of me whining about my weight. 22 weeks down with a little boy on the way. I am feeling incredibly lucky right now!